Thursday, September 1, 2011

HeRe We Go AgAiN..

so yeah...i fell in love all over again...
it was magical..
it was beautiful...
i really hoped for it to work this time...and actually thought that it would...
i was so happy..was full of smiles and laughs...


lasted for a few months...
and the same thing that happened last time, happened again...
i was being ignored...
no calls, no msgs...nothing....
it ended just like that...no reasons were given...

guess i was never meant to fall in love...
it hurts so bad...but there's nothing that i can do about it right...
i pray to god to give me strength to go through this pain..all over again...



Wednesday, February 16, 2011

You may see me smile when i talk, and laugh.. but watch me when i'm not interacting with people...
watch my smile fade..watch my eyes as the sadness returns..

Saturday, January 29, 2011

SiLeNt WoRdS...

Standing outside in the storm..Why won't the wind take my soul... Why won't the thunder drown my screams...
I'm falling apart, barely breathing.. sometimes it is just easier to run than face all these pain...
Does anyone even hear me scream? Funny, because I always hear them in a whisper...
Is this how it is going to be?..Being left by every single person I get attached to?
I give my everything...Blood, sweat, tears, LIFE...and what do I get in return?...NOTHING...
It is sad when we let best friends turn into just friends, and friends turn into people we know, and people we know turn into just, people. 
But you know what...No matter what happens, all they have to do is simply turn back and look cause I'll always be there...


The thing that i don't seem to get is: why me? i mean, what went wrong? what did i do? to be left alone like this? loneliness is and never was a nice feeling...
is there and end to this?
Yes, i have friends...But as awkward as it seems, no matter how many people i have, surrounding me, deep down, i still feel lonely...
the memories of those who left will always linger...
If i could change this, i would...
But now, all that i am capable of doing is: PRAY...
Pray that this loneliness, this miserable fucked up feeling will not follow me till the end, to the grave...